I don’t have any statistics to offer You. I have no impressive numbers. I have earned no remarkable testimonies. All I have is my heart. It’s neither pure nor blameless. It rages within me. I feel torn in half. The battle exhausts me, physically, mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. So, here I am in this valley.… Continue reading All I Have

I sat on the couch, peered around the room, and immediately began mentally reviewing what was left on my agenda for the day: team prayer meeting, homework with the kids, cleaning the commons room, dinner prep, and dinner. My head swam and my heart sunk, overwhelmed. I didn’t have the hours I needed to do… Continue reading How much??

My weakness is my strength. I have nothing I can give Him. I can only receive. I can try and try and try but my righteousness is nothing. Finally, exhausted, I throw my hands up and quit. Fine, I’ll let You love me. I haven’t earned this love. In fact, I’ve earned the removal of… Continue reading weakness

I stare at the ground beneath our feet as it transitions from dry, cracked dirt to smooth, cool concrete to textureless, painted railroad tracks. The pomegranate field looks the same as it did an hour ago. The randomly blossoming white-flowered growth hasn’t moved. The vehicles still drive by trying to drown out our voices. Doesn’t… Continue reading Today.